I have realised what I am in the past year... a waster... fact. haha. And yes, a waster to what you see as a someone who wastes their school time, grades and doesn't get a job or really care what they do. I am. but I live the aspects I love to the full like fun, friends, love, passion. See I waste the things that seems like waste to me but grow on the things I feel is important, as at the end of the day, we die and are quickly forgotten.

So at this time in my life, I feel I have the world in my hands, anything is possible. I know that this will not always last but for now I am just dreaming of what could be real so soon. A family that love me, the wife I will rush home everyday just to see, the kids I will raise and love for being them, for celebrating with them in their proud moments and being there in their not so proud, the small house that's far too small for us all but we'll love it like a family member, telling my grandkids that 'touch phones were all the rage back in my day' and closing my eye's for the last time knowing that my life was never restricted by 'my abilities' or 'grades', I lived it and ran the race, I am done.

I am not worried for the future. God is here and that is the greatest comfort I need.