Flip, well here we go again... I thought it would be best update my blog before we hit June. Since my last blog, I have become 18, that's right, a legal adult. This year has been crazy. Last year was sooooo awesome and then this year hit and that all changed (just to let you know, I am talking about the academic year - starting at September). At about November time, I was really low and I hated life, I couldn't understand why certain things happened and other things didn't. I was disconnected from God. A sentence containing those words 'disconnected' and 'God' is never good. Then a lot of things happened to me and to be honest I'm not feeling great about everything now but I know it all has a reason. Through the months I was really down I kept a smile on my face hoping when someone actually asked me 'how are you doing?' they were actually asking me how I was coping and not just being polite. Why do I sit and write out all my personal things here, so you, the reader can learn from it. What I'm trying to say is, if you have a problem, talk to someone, trust me it helps. Even if it's a small problem. Also, sit down with people and 'invest' into their lives, see how they are actually doing and not just be polite.

What has changed in the months since November for me? Three things actually.

God has changed my perspective but showed me through old ways, taking me to the basics of his teachings and love.

I have had a friend who has 'invested' time into my life, hanging out with me and talking. I now have a great relationship with him.

When taking one of my closest friends home some nights, I am able to sit and open my heart to her and tell her everything that's bothering me. She's great and I don't think that she realises the impact she has had in my life in the past months.

So, live it, let's see what tomorrow brings because I think we have lost the excitement that anything can happen tomorrow.

So that's it the end of what I knew of my life but in itself, a new life born. I am told I have to get an education, get a job, a career, a family, a house and these things will make me happy. Why? I have realised that we are all told and guided what to do and we lose out on one of the greatest gifts God gave us, freedom. Without our freedom, who are we? Slaves to the corporate world? Feeding us crap of what we need? We need nothing. My intentions right now at this moment in time are to live... just live. Live every second like its a year.

How does one measure a day? Is it by seconds? Minutes? Hours? Or is measured by something more? Something more than mere digits. Something timeless. For me it's measured by brief moments. Where time blurs out of focus and all recollection of it fades. It's a smile. It's heartbeats. It's love sparks. A day in my life holds no adventures and no adventure can truly describe one self. It's in the small things that truly show who I am. From Laugher to kisses. My day is filled with memories of days passed. When I was a kid I would day dream, I do it to this day. Between every breath last a life time in a dream.

...and I totally agree. There has been a crap load on my mind, hence all the blogging. So I am going to write about the next thing thats on my mind... you don't have to sit here with me and read it... it's cool... but you know.... you may enjoy it...... maybe. So here's the topic, Bravery, well that's not actually the title but it's sort of the best way to describe it. So for me, confidence isn't really high, I am great when with random people because I know there is a high chance that I will never see them again, so it doesn't really bother me but when I am actually with people who's opinion I care about, I freak out! That's why my friend's know me as 'Mr. Awkward'. Also I don't do well in situations when neverous, for example, the last girl I asked out... I nearly passed out, and threw up... I didn't which was good but I had to sit down after.

The Future... bam! A big topic indeed. This was the post I was originally supposed to write before the other one but saved it as a draft because I felt the other was more important at the time. The title is pure, 100% cheesetastic silly string, right? I love it. So with this being my last year in school, the future is on my mind... alot. I was scared because I didn't know what the future held for me but I realise now that not knowing what the future brings is a good thing, as I can make it what ever I want, I get to be the author of my own book.

Yo yo yo, I'm back for some more blogging, that's right. Well there are many topics I would like to discuss in this post, these are; finishing my Moving images arts coursework, giving up facebook, changing up my mac dock and doing my first project in Adobe Illustrator.