Well... It's currently 2:14am on a Monday morning and I'm in my University halls... that's right, you read it right, I'm in University. I don't think that what I write here matters because no one reads it. I read a couple of past posts I did and boy, was I deep! So I am going to carry on tradition here. Here's the punch line: life just ends up moving on. It doesn't matter if you want it too or not, it does and you have to learn to deal with that. Usually people are just rolling with it they don't even realise stuff is changing and that's cool, that's a good perspective to have because let me tell you, things are about to drastically change... Maybe for the good or for the bad, that's the beauty of uncertainty.

I realised I can start new anywhere but the past is always going to be there, so I am going to be continuing to blog on this one instead of the new one.

My story is a simple one to tell, born the 28th of May eighteen years ago. Grew up in Belfast, got some friends, lost those friends got new ones. Alot has happened in my life most of which wasn't pleasant but I've been told thats life but this is my story and I wouldn't change a thing, I was put here for a purpose, this was written by a King, was carefully designed, hand-crafted and made by the One who's never made a mistake, I want to give all it takes from here on out to make up for lost time but what's done is done and I can't press rewind and all of my regrets are chasin' me from behind but the future's unwritten I'm racin' towards the finish line... So from here on out everyday counts I know Your grace meets me no matter what the amount despite that I'm hard-hearted, You gave me a clean slate and promised that You'd finish what you've started and even though a four minute long blog can barely scratch the surface. It's sure enough to show I'm far from perfect so thank you for the past, help me live in the present to prepare me for the future 'til my story ends.

Parts from B. Reiths song 'My Story'.

Simple. Thank you Jesus, I am strong because of you.

So the end is here... the end of my life as I know it... and so begins a new a chapter:

Flip, well here we go again... I thought it would be best update my blog before we hit June. Since my last blog, I have become 18, that's right, a legal adult. This year has been crazy. Last year was sooooo awesome and then this year hit and that all changed (just to let you know, I am talking about the academic year - starting at September). At about November time, I was really low and I hated life, I couldn't understand why certain things happened and other things didn't. I was disconnected from God. A sentence containing those words 'disconnected' and 'God' is never good. Then a lot of things happened to me and to be honest I'm not feeling great about everything now but I know it all has a reason. Through the months I was really down I kept a smile on my face hoping when someone actually asked me 'how are you doing?' they were actually asking me how I was coping and not just being polite. Why do I sit and write out all my personal things here, so you, the reader can learn from it. What I'm trying to say is, if you have a problem, talk to someone, trust me it helps. Even if it's a small problem. Also, sit down with people and 'invest' into their lives, see how they are actually doing and not just be polite.

What has changed in the months since November for me? Three things actually.

God has changed my perspective but showed me through old ways, taking me to the basics of his teachings and love.

I have had a friend who has 'invested' time into my life, hanging out with me and talking. I now have a great relationship with him.

When taking one of my closest friends home some nights, I am able to sit and open my heart to her and tell her everything that's bothering me. She's great and I don't think that she realises the impact she has had in my life in the past months.

So, live it, let's see what tomorrow brings because I think we have lost the excitement that anything can happen tomorrow.

So that's it the end of what I knew of my life but in itself, a new life born. I am told I have to get an education, get a job, a career, a family, a house and these things will make me happy. Why? I have realised that we are all told and guided what to do and we lose out on one of the greatest gifts God gave us, freedom. Without our freedom, who are we? Slaves to the corporate world? Feeding us crap of what we need? We need nothing. My intentions right now at this moment in time are to live... just live. Live every second like its a year.

How does one measure a day? Is it by seconds? Minutes? Hours? Or is measured by something more? Something more than mere digits. Something timeless. For me it's measured by brief moments. Where time blurs out of focus and all recollection of it fades. It's a smile. It's heartbeats. It's love sparks. A day in my life holds no adventures and no adventure can truly describe one self. It's in the small things that truly show who I am. From Laugher to kisses. My day is filled with memories of days passed. When I was a kid I would day dream, I do it to this day. Between every breath last a life time in a dream.

...and I totally agree. There has been a crap load on my mind, hence all the blogging. So I am going to write about the next thing thats on my mind... you don't have to sit here with me and read it... it's cool... but you know.... you may enjoy it...... maybe. So here's the topic, Bravery, well that's not actually the title but it's sort of the best way to describe it. So for me, confidence isn't really high, I am great when with random people because I know there is a high chance that I will never see them again, so it doesn't really bother me but when I am actually with people who's opinion I care about, I freak out! That's why my friend's know me as 'Mr. Awkward'. Also I don't do well in situations when neverous, for example, the last girl I asked out... I nearly passed out, and threw up... I didn't which was good but I had to sit down after.

The Future... bam! A big topic indeed. This was the post I was originally supposed to write before the other one but saved it as a draft because I felt the other was more important at the time. The title is pure, 100% cheesetastic silly string, right? I love it. So with this being my last year in school, the future is on my mind... alot. I was scared because I didn't know what the future held for me but I realise now that not knowing what the future brings is a good thing, as I can make it what ever I want, I get to be the author of my own book.

Yo yo yo, I'm back for some more blogging, that's right. Well there are many topics I would like to discuss in this post, these are; finishing my Moving images arts coursework, giving up facebook, changing up my mac dock and doing my first project in Adobe Illustrator.

Well as you can see, I gave the look of the blog an update, pretty groovy right? Yes... I did just use the word groovy. Not a lot has happened in my life since my last blog and this post won't be as intense as the last one. My life has the routine button activated at the moment, my week has consisted of: Wake up, drive to school, watch Thomas the tank engine, not really do any work, distract friends from work so I don't feel so bad about my own, lunch, stay after school to do the work I haven't done, drive home, go on Facebook and bed. Repeat.

This will hopefully stop though as my Moving Images Arts has to be in tomorrow so I will be able to get out more. For example, I am going to see Iron man 2 on Saturday..... I have spent too much time in school.

Well, that's another hectic week over. It's been a bit crazy, I must say. Although I did get to watch Thomas the tank and friends this morning. In school, because it's our last couple of weeks, we have been getting pictures and been given questionnaires about our time in school and its made everyone think and discuss the stuff thats gone down in the past two years; the good and the bad. It's been kinda nice reminiscing about the past event's like the pre-formal, Jonny's party, the night we stayed up to do coursework and many others. I have realised that in these last two years, I have never laughed, cried and peed my pants so much in my life and I have enjoyed it. I have made so many friends and I would like to say that these friendships will last forever but instead I'll say our friendships will last the course, wether that be a year or 50 years. I will never forget those who loved me for who I was, and who I loved for being them.

It feels like 'an end of an era' sorta thing but instead its just a new chapter. I am really scared of what the future brings but so what. I recently read a friends blog there and he wrote about a death of a friend who was in his teens. He then went on to explain that life is greater than numbers on a page, and this is true. It has really inspired me to do what I want to do, not what others say. My life is 17 years overdue and it's only by the mercy and grace of God that I am still here, so I say friend, go out and live your life, eat, drink, get married and be merry for this world's epilogue is about to conclude.

Peace,

Wilson.

Well well... It seems like it's that time again. The time in which I blog once more. Right now I have never been so stressed and tired in my life. The work is being piled on and to be honest, all I want to do is nothing, just chill really. Procrastination is at its best right now, I have coursework for tomorrow but instead I have watched My name is Earl, the big bang theory and how I met your mother, and right now I am writing this so not much of an improvement.

Okay, so heres the craic. Over Easter I had been given a crap load of work to do for school; write-ups, essays, films, evaluations etc and as you can probably see I ain't done it, so instead of actually doing it, I thought it would be better to blog about it, you know what I'm saying playa? So rightnow I have a custom playlist on spotify and a can of diet coke, I can do this.... I think.....

I would really love to grow a moustache... this is my dream! I'm gonna do it. I have recently been blogging more now because I just discovered that I have a blog.... I also have coursework need doing and no one actually reads my blogs except me so it doesn't really matter, there just really reminders.

Over the past couple of weeks, I have realised something... Facebook is evil! Although I can't stop going on it. To be honest, Twitter is the way forward. In the posts before I always wrote on how I am inspired... How I have been pushed to do something... to make something of myself... but I soon realized thats all bull-crap, life is way too short to wonder "should I?" and just do it. To this revelation, I am not really caring about my studies because I am more worried about actually passing them than not.